Welcome to my site! This is a story about how, after 46 years, I started living my life as Charlene. I have had many struggles along the way, including events such as surviving a near-fatal neck injury, being rejected and disowned by my family and friends, ridiculed and mocked by those who are extremely prejudiced and who either don’t want to understand or refuse to educate themselves for a better understanding. When I came out of my closet, I was fired from my job for just being a transsexual female. In spite of all this, I am extremely happy about the process thus far of becoming a “total” female spiritually, mentally, and physically. Since I started my transition, some individuals consider me a transgender female, or often referred to as a transsexual male to female. I just consider myself a female and nothing else. I am proud of having the courage and the determination to live in my correct gender and now want to share with others about my decision to become a female.
This lifestyle is not shared by all and sometimes confused with being gay or some sort of sexual perversion – it’s not. I'm here to share my story about my personal journey of becoming Charlene. Being honest with myself about who I am, I would like to share my personal story about the process I have made thus far and the challenges of what still remains prior to my final surgery. I would like to share with you that my marriage to Marlene has had its good times, and also bad times of hatred that Marlene and I both endured at the hands of friends and family, to the often humorous times we shared together throughout my transition.
While I have made some very specific mental and physical changes, Marlene has stood beside me every step of the way and I know that she will share a major intimate moment with me when I am wheeled into the operating room for my sexual reassignment surgery and will be there when I wake up from surgery. I have shared with Marlene that I can’t wait to give her the first kiss as a total female…. what a beautiful intimate moment that will be for both of us as I wake up from surgery!
I pray that each of us can live our own truth without hiding from anybody or letting others dictate who we are or want to be. As Shakespeare once wrote, "To thine own self be true" and trust me that I am being true to myself after 46 years of living a horrible lie.
Within this site you will find those who have gone out of their way to not only accept me, but to assist me throughout my transition. I would like to say "thank you" to those who have stood beside me in this wonderful journey of becoming a dignified and classy woman. As a dear friend told me recently, “Enjoy the Ride!!!” And what a ride it has been thus far…
Love,
Charlene
